on blogging

social distancing

Sometimes, I think about how it kinda sucks that the passion I feel so called and drawn to (writing, or blogging) essentially requires winning a popularity contest to make a living. Whether that’s for authoring a book, building a blog, or any artist’s work, creating something as your life’s calling basically requires patrons to purchase some piece of said creation if you wish to make a living from your purpose. Ah, purpose, there you are again. I’ve been obsessed with life purpose for all of my quarter-life-crisis-turned-spiritual-awakening. Come to find out, there’s a good explanation for my passion in this area. Which, I learned from exploring my personality. It’s in my pattern for “at work & in the world”: “You’re intended to find work that feels like a calling […]

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champion

champion seashore

Sunday night, I began re-watching The Black Cauldron on Disney+. Within the first quarter-hour, Taryn talks about how he wants to be the greatest warrior Prydain has ever known. To become their champion, and then he’s assigned the task of keeping Henwen the seer pig safe. His purpose is clearly laid out before him. Then his actions the rest of the movie are defined by and stem from that calling. I guess I’ve had this mindset (possibly from Disney but also from reading books) that one day, a quest would be thrust upon me and I would know without a doubt that it was my purpose to overcome the challenge or defeat the villain or complete the adventure. Yesterday, I did the Yoga with Adriene practice for the day, […]

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Hello December, you last month of the decade you!

amazeballs armchair

Oh boy, November flew by. So fast, indeed, that I almost allowed myself to forget about failing at Nanowrimo… almost. But we’re moving forward into December! Alas, what with winterizing and moving out of the RV, moving into our new apartment, a trip to Austin, family in town for Thanksgiving, and my ever-persistent self-sabotage and lack of discipline, I did not win Nanowrimo this year. Not even close. A far cry from 50k with my 10,808 words, but hey, those are ten thousand words I wouldn’t have otherwise. And, I’ve finally decided on my first writing project, after changing up my plan and outline about 13 times over the course of the week and a half I was actually really trying for Nanowrimo — I’m committing to writing a […]

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“Are you scared?”

scurred

“Are you scared?” “Are you scared?” After he asked me the question Thursday night, Reid’s voice echoed inside my head. And my gut reaction instantly was to nod my head “yes” and let the tears flow. *** I don’t even remember the first part of our conversation leading up to that question right now, just that my perception of it was clouded by how freaked out I was getting that NaNoWriMo started the next day. Reid, noticing my impending distress, took off his headset, set down the Xbox controller, and came to sit next to me on the couch. Wrapping his arms around me, he asked an honest and insightful question that maybe only someone who knows me so well could. “Are you scared?” And holy moly, am I […]

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what I have been up to lately

family dinner

I figured because it’s been a while since I started and then subsequently stopped my emPATHETIC blog, I could probably stand to do a brief summary of my life for the past year and a half or so. Here are all the major highlights that led up to where I’m at now – about to write a novel in 30 days for NaNoWriMo! Also, if you were reading when I posted my last RV update last year with what I think was the Canada blog post, then I feel like I left y’all in a place of me feeling totally overwhelmed and out of control amongst the RV madness, so I feel like I owe people the most recent update even moreso after leaving everyone with a taste in […]

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children’s book: “two little trees”

tree branches

1 One fine Spring day, two tiny saplings realized they were alive. Having just freshly sprouted, they looked at each other from across the soil, then looked around them at the landscape. 2 “Wow,” said one, who we’ll call Pecan, “look at all the giant oak trees over there! Think we’ll ever grow that big and tall?” 3 “Hmmph,” harrumphed the other, called Nettle, “I doubt it’s possible. I mean look at us – we’re puny in comparison!” 4 Pecan nodded in agreement for a moment, then said, “Well I think someday we’ll be big and strong too. I’m going to do whatever I can to grow!” 5 Nettle shrugged then told Pecan, “You go right ahead. I don’t think we should bother. There’s no way we’ll ever be […]

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A short story about how Reid and I decided to do the RV thing

rv bravery

I thought that for my first short story installment of October, I’d answer one of the questions Reid and I have received the most since embarking upon our RV journey: “How did you two decide to quit your jobs and do this?” The answer might disappoint you, I’m afraid. Or, at the very least, underwhelm you. I shall press on in the telling though. The main reason I grow concerned that people will be alarmingly underwhelmed by the backstory of our decision is because of the fact that neither one of us even remembers how or who first thought of the RVing idea. In February 2017, Reid and I went out for Valentine’s Day date night dinner at a local brewery in Redondo Beach. I was in-between jobs and […]

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