I’m an addict: purpose & procrastination

passion led purpose

I wonder if there’s anyone else on the planet who ponders “life purpose” as much as I do. I think I’ve thought about it every single day since I was but a wee recruiter crying in my car en route to work back in 2016. Just to give a small piece of evidence for proof of how much I ruminate on finding my “purpose”, I currently have 39 iPhone notes that mention the word. That’s not even including how many times I’ve focused on it as the subject of my handwritten diary entries! Everyone says to just chase your passion and then you’ll end up finding/living your purpose. Well, it appears I’m passionate about… finding purpose. Reid always tells me that it’s at least better I’m asking all these […]

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To write, or not to write? January 30, 2020 // 5:25 pm

create today diary

Dear Diary,  I’m reading the heroin diaries by Nikki Sixx of Motley Crue and had the thought to try and write a diary entry in his style. Where it basically goes: first say why you’re picking up the notebook to write in that moment. Then what’s on your mind, your thoughts, feelings, and details about recent past events. Maybe some pondering of future plans.  Right now from the couch as Reid plays Rocket League before I decide to get up and start cooking dinner, I’m reading about how Tommy would go over to shoot heroin with Nikki but would never let himself do too much or be there for too long because it scared him.  I watched The Dirt last year and for some reason became obsessed with it. […]

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champion

champion seashore

Sunday night, I began re-watching The Black Cauldron on Disney+. Within the first quarter-hour, Taryn talks about how he wants to be the greatest warrior Prydain has ever known. To become their champion, and then he’s assigned the task of keeping Henwen the seer pig safe. His purpose is clearly laid out before him. Then his actions the rest of the movie are defined by and stem from that calling. I guess I’ve had this mindset (possibly from Disney but also from reading books) that one day, a quest would be thrust upon me and I would know without a doubt that it was my purpose to overcome the challenge or defeat the villain or complete the adventure. Yesterday, I did the Yoga with Adriene practice for the day, […]

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Wednesday, August 7, 2019: BLM Land near Escalante, UT

utah ride

Does anyone else ever just take a pause in their life to look around, ponder, then ask, “What the heck am I doing?” [Side note, minimizing the Yoast SEO plugin just might be my best new discovery. Not obsessing over if the “readability” smiley face is green, orange, or red should do wonders for my writing and publishing of posts.] Anyways, back to my question. Because, I do, all the time. Oftentimes out loud to Reid (or Lincoln). Today is one of those days for sure. For a little backstory, I have been super obsessed with finding my purpose for a while now. This endless pursuit began when I was but a wee recruiter in the staffing industry (read: it’s a sales job, only masquerading as the job I […]

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